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[his voice comes out quiet]
I almost thought it would be different, this time.
I almost thought it would be different, this time.
It does seem to be the way of things.
[shakes his head]
I could do it to myself.
[purposefully avoiding the word 'kill']
[shakes his head]
I could do it to myself.
[purposefully avoiding the word 'kill']
[the vehemence of her words, they surprise him]
I don't want you to die, either.
I don't want you to die, either.
[he shakes his head sharply]
No. I don't want that. It's not fine.
No. I don't want that. It's not fine.
But why should you have to be hurt, and not me? It...seems more like it should be me.
I'm...
[it feels strange to say it, but the memory had been clear]
Supposed to be a weapon. So wouldn't it make more sense for me to take it?
[it feels strange to say it, but the memory had been clear]
Supposed to be a weapon. So wouldn't it make more sense for me to take it?
[well, that's...there's something in that, something he likes. he wants to be barghest, to be hers, to be cepheus and not whatever else he'd been before he got here. he's sure of that.
but this situation, it's difficult. there's a tension in him that's almost palpable]
I don't want you to die. I don't want it to be my fault.
but this situation, it's difficult. there's a tension in him that's almost palpable]
I don't want you to die. I don't want it to be my fault.
[curls his fingers around hers, his grip a little firmer]
But it would. I would have allowed it to happen. I should...be able to protect you, too.
But it would. I would have allowed it to happen. I should...be able to protect you, too.
[the tension in him, it's growing]
But I shouldn't need to be protected! I don't want to be so useless!
[oh hey this might be the first time he's actually raised his voice]
But I shouldn't need to be protected! I don't want to be so useless!
[oh hey this might be the first time he's actually raised his voice]
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